Monday morning, we woke up (earlier than I wanted to be awake) to hear the news, Santa Rosa was burning. The night before I remember telling myself to watch a certain YouTube video the next day I wanted to see but kept forgetting, the next morning though YouTube never entered my mind as we tried to decide if we should pack up and leave before a mandatory evacuation was given.
Being disabled is difficult for many reasons, one is knowing what is too difficult for me and knowing what is too difficult for others to do for me. Being in public for me is very difficult because I have to expose my disabilities and how people react to what they see can have a huge impact on me, making me shy and incredibly vulnerable in public. Continue reading
I have an incredible amount of drama in my life. My life is tough(to put it simply) and creates a lot of drama for me, but most of my drama and stress come from family members who seem to like drama and are experts at creating it.
“Life becomes so much better when you decide not to join the drama. Just live for the moment and don’t let the drama bring you down.”
My life is filled with imperfections, but there are many things I enjoy despite the problems my life presences. I am crazy about food and luckily I have a body type that makes it relatively easy to eat what I want. Continue reading
Difficult moments are a part of everyone’s life, I have been through so many in my life that dealing with one more shouldn’t be this difficult. Every moment in my life has led up to this one and I ask myself would I be willing to change some of my good moments to erase some of the bad ones? No, because in life we need to accept the good and the bad moments together, because the good moments aren’t as good without the bad. Continue reading
Two years ago today we went to the hospital and didn’t hear the heartbeat we so badly wanted to hear, a moment that no amount of joy can erase. Since that day I have done a lot of healing, but some pain will never have a full recovery and we must learn to live with the injury. Continue reading
Every marriage is unique, with its own challenges and difficulties every couple must overcome to enjoy their life together. My husband and I share a life filled with happiness, but also pain. Continue reading
Sometimes I get so scared. Scared of what my future is supposed to be like, what I’m told is inevitable. Continue reading
I hate myself for every moment I can’t help myself, for every time I wake Stephen to help me move my legs so I can sleep, every time my younger sister helps me in the bathroom, every time I can’t prepare my own food or take a bath on my own. The list goes on and on, but I hate myself the most for not being able to show loved ones how much I love them. Continue reading
We just got back from an incredible trip to the Mid-west. We saw so much of Gods beautiful country and so many wonderful people, it makes me fell truly blessed to be alive. Continue reading
I have always believed we were put on this earth to help each other and the fact that my disease took away my ability to help those that I care about has taken me a long time to learn how to live with, even though I’ve learned how to live with it; I don’t think I could ever learn how to be okay with it. Continue reading
Some people find shopping boring and tiresome, I am not one of those people; Shopping is one of my favorite things to do, I find it fun and therapeutic.
“Keep calm and go shopping.”
To handle mental instability of someone you love is incredibly difficult, what you want to do and what you need to do are often two very different things. The difficulties in your past that once seemed so unfathomable become merely a stepping stone for trials to come. Continue reading